As long as I can remember I've been in the rut where there was no real weight loss. I did anything and everything to lose and I either maintained or gained. And I have the pictures to prove this.
Most of my life (save a few years when homeless and moments in high school and college where I figured out how to eat on the run from being too busy for actual dinner) I ate relatively healthy per the FDA's idea of healthy. A lot of vegetables (even some years as vegetarian), grains and low fats, no salt.
When I was a child there was debate about whether I was getting fat or if I had "baby weight to yet be lost when I grow". These were 85 (least think the Halloween one with my half sister's brothers was 85ish)
Next we have age 10, around when I was starting my monthly bs they call "nature's gift". Funny even back then I could figure out it was more trouble than what it's worth and I wanted to find a way to never have it again. lol
I was around 5'4" and prob a size 16/18.
Next was around age 13/14 (I didn't date the pic but I know I got those boxers in 7th or 8th grade and massive Taz obsession starting). This was the zoo with some cousins I haven't seen since they were near that size lol. Here my activities were home required exercise, hiking, and marching band (more work than it looks).
I was 5'6" 180lbs and 14/16
Now to 16. I was in sports, always going somewhere, marching band (always training for it even when off season), training at home for sports/band/trying-to-get-thin. This is when I hit a neurotic level health kick.
I was 180 and 14/16.
Onto 17 and 18. Here I was heavy working out due to drum corps. Miles ran or bladed a day, weights, calistenics, boot camp style working out for hours a day. As well as the band, sports and now add dance.
I was still 180 but down to 12/14 pants or 8/10 dress (hips were always stuck no matter what).
19 at my first job in Cedar Point, I worked all of the time so no time to do extra working out. But the job was high activity so it was like working out. I had destroyed my body with how active I was in high school. By the time I was out of school I was ridden with tendonitis, arthritis (had it since I was a kid), and various injuries who started to give me hell from not healing right.
I was prob around 200 here and back to 16/18 or even 20.
From 19 to 22 I was in college for 25 credit hours per semester (double full time student), I held as many jobs as I could (either two jobs or worked as much over time as I could get at one), married so had home duties whenever I could get home and was in a massive abusive relationship (much worse than what I had in my youth). Here is where I decided to be what is now called raw vegan, mostly because it traveled well.
I got around 300 and size 24/28 by this pic.
Here I got my yellow belt in Kung Fu. I was 23 and was in it to gain self defense and confidence, also hoped to lose weight. I was in class roughly 30 hrs a week while working full time. I used the bus for many years and walked around LA. I was back to health kick on food; high veg, high grains, soy protein drinks after working out, etc. Went high vegetarian around this time, ate what my roommates made.
I was prob 350 here, 26/28.
Some shots during kung fu, my weight didn't change during the process.
At 26 I was circling 400 and still 28. After awhile I started to allow to eat non-healthy foods when my ex and I would go out. The healthy was not resulting in what should have happened. I was just about at my black belt by this pic.
2013, now 31, this is 3 years of Autoimmune Paleo protocol, settling into a paleo hybrid after finding my triggers due to finding out I was allergic to the vast variety of food I was eating thinking it was healthy.
I'm 340-370 and 26 (verging on a 24 some days).
In January 2014 I had a fight with the swine flu and lost around 30 lbs over 3 days from the constant purging. After a week I fought it off. I gained back a little bit when I could hold water in again. I've been maintaining ~325 since. Still in a size 26 for jeans, especially for the days I hold more water retention.
The semi-amusing thing, no matter how annoying it is that I cannot lose weight, I don't seem to put it on either. I'm at a severe caloric deficit and should be losing, but I don't. There are days where I binge eat before my menses comes, could eat a whole pizza to myself followed by bags of chips and somehow not gain weight; barring constipation since constipation does add some weight. That is nothing a strong diuretic tea healthy dump won't fix.
In December of 2014 the endocrinologist seems to think that sleeving my stomach will fix this. I highly doubt that since I know the mechanism of how the sleeve works. I schooled her on this, how it is an unnecessary surgery, and she got seriously bitchy at me.
March 2015. Started Topamax in December (started 25mg, 50mg by March), no change in my diet.
May 2015, on 75mg of Topamax. I added in a bit of liver support (NAC and Kali Sulphur) plus probiotics for type O blood. My diet also went to whatever I could scavenge from work, 711, fast food, 99 cent store, markets, etc. due to money. So pretty much heavy with what the world thinks a fat person in America would eat. Not much change in activity vs last year, but much weakening in muscle strength and volume compared to when I was sleeping all day with no walking to the store or down the beach. I weighed in at the doctor's office at 314! Not only this but my blood labs for cholesterol and the hormones that were checked are spot on perfect and the healthiest they've been o.O I don't even know how that happened.
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